---
title: Improvement Era
description: Monthly periodical of the Mormon church, 1897 onward. This library holds the issues of November 1897 to December 1930.
authors:
  - Pearson, Sarah E. H.
collections:
  - periodicals
tags:
  - magazine
  - improvement-era
periodical: Improvement Era
volume: 14
number: 2
published: 1910-12
publisher: Young Men’s Mutual Improvement Associations
publisher_place: Salt Lake City
language: en
type: magazine
reference: "Pearson, Sarah E. H., “When Life Was Young,” *Improvement Era* 14, no. 2 (December 1910): 147–149."
source:
  url: https://archive.org/details/improvementera1402unse
  transcription: Transcribed from the Internet Archive scan of each issue (the item for each issue is named in the issue's own source); unnumbered advertising leaves are omitted, printed page numbers are kept as page markers.
  identifier: improvementera1402unse
start_page: 147
end_page: 149
rights:
  status: public-domain
  basis: US publication 1930 or earlier (published 1910-12)
  source: https://archive.org/details/improvementera1402unse
  publication_year: 1910
  note: The Internet Archive item metadata carries a blanket "© Copyright by Intellectual Reserve, Inc." notice. The library owner judged it inapplicable because this issue was published in 1910, before 1931; a scan-level notice does not restore copyright.
---

# When Life Was Young

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When  Life  Was  Young.
Dedicated  to  Justus  W.  Seeley  II.,  on  his  Sixtieth
Birthday.
BY  SARAH  E.  H.  PEARSON.
[The  Coat  of  Arms  published  herewith  is  the  crest  of  the  Hawley
family,  of  which  the  author  is  a  member,  and  appears,  I  believe,  for
the  first  time  in  print,  in  Utah,  to  arouse  interest
among  the  members  rf  said  family  in  the  genealogical
history,  both  in  the  little  book,  House  of  Hawley,  as
well  as  the  records,  containing  over  seven  thousand
names,  now  in  the  hands  of  the  Utah  Genealogical
Society.  Jacob  C.  Hawley,  of  Oasis,  Utah,  recent
missionary  in  Michigan,  has,  I  believe,  been  largely
instrumental  in  placing  the  records  and  gathering
new  data.— S.  E.  H.  P.]
When  life  was  young,  its  kingship  all  before  you,
Its  untried  paths  with  bloom  and  beauty  hung,
Those  were  the  days  when  as  a  child  I  knew  you
And  Annie — sweet  companion  you  had  won.
Watched  with  a  child's  un jealous  admiration
The  wildrose  bloom  upon  her  glowing  cheek,
As  your  fond  eyes  taught  Love's  initiation.
And  hers  replied  with  lustre  mild  and  meek.
The  years  are  long  since  then,  Time's  pathway  leading
Through  dewy  morn,  with  its  lush  grass  and  flowers,
On  to  the  mountain  top,  the  hour  glass  reading
The  flush  of  noon  through  intertwining  hours,
The  pathway  rugged  oft,  and  steep  for  climbing,
Oft  wind-swept,  snow- bedecked,  or  burning  sand.

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148  IMPROVEMENT  ERA.
To  you — subduers  of  the  wilds  of  nature —
Grim  civilizers  of  that  cliff-bound  land —
Homes,  trees  by  running  streams,  and  orchards  ripening,
Erstwhile  refresh  your  footsore,  toiling  band.
Just  twice  I  saw  you  'midst  those  early  struggles,
And  Rogers  asked  me,  with  a  sneer,  your  plight,
Laughed  scornfully  at  prophesied  successes;
Fore-claimed  for  you  the  certain  losing  fight.
"I  know  the  place,"  he  said.     "Such  desolation!
I  rode  that  country  through  the  Indian  raids.
Coyotes  and  rattlers!     End  of  earth's  creation!
The  world's  debris  thrown  next  the  Gate  of  Hades!"
As  leaders'  foretime  saw  their  homes  in  vision,
The  furrows,  plants  and  trees  before  they  grew,
So  later  seers  saw  other  fields  elysian
Spring,  through  their  toil  and  faith,  to  actual  view. —
Well  I  recall  that  first,  rude,  one-roomed  cabin,
A  visit  from  a  young,  unhappy  wife,
The  bread  of  kindness  loving  hands  extended,
Mute  sympathy  that  was  the  wine  of  life.
Well  I  recall  the  letter  on  the  mantle,
My  shiver  as  the  postmark  stared  at  me;
It  was  from  home!     Could  there  be  aught  the  matter?
My  wishing  eyes  would  pierce  the  seal  to  see.
I  turned  a  startled  gaze  to  Annie,  seeing
Eyes  brooding  mystic  message  to  be  read;
But  quivering  lips  vouchsafed  no  explanation  —
How  could  she  tell  me  that  my  love  was  dead!
The  letter  was  her  own.     I  put  it  from  me,
Thrust  forth  the  memory  of  it  from  my  mind;
I  would  not  let  intruding  thoughts  crowd  on  me.
To  pale-faced  Fear  I  cried,  "Get  thee  behind!
Life  hath  too  much  of  gaunt,  despairing  sorrow —
Presaged,  the  lifelong  path  of  agony!
Papa,  we'll  laugh  the  ghosts  away — to-morrow."
(Oh,  in  thy  neck  to  hide  my  tears  today!)
I'll  feel  my  father's  rapturous  arms — to-morrow
Bask  in  his  loving,  understanding  smile,

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WHEN  LIFE  WAS  YOUNG.  149
And  know  I  could  not  from  the  angels  borrow
More  happiness  than  shall  be  mine — the  while.
I'll  tell  him  of  my  wanderings,  and  double
The  dreams  wherein  I  stumbled  through  the  dark;
When  mother's  shade  was  guide  through  stress  and  trouble,
And  always  led  me  t'ward  a  shining  mark.
Then,  in  my  dream,  I  saw  them  both,  at  even,
Walk  hand  in  hand,  and  marveled  as  I  smiled;
My  sweet  young  mother,  lo,  for  years  in  heaven,
And  father,  darling,  here  with  me  the  while.
No,  that  part  of  my  dream  is  out  of  reason !
(What  matter  tidings  that  the  letter  gave!)
So,  trusting,  I  returned  home— just  in  season,
To  cry  my  heart  out  on  my  father's  grave.
These  are  the  flashlights  thrown  upon  the  canvas
From  memory — pictures  of  the  long  ago,
The  blue  and  gold  of  youth,  and  hope,  and  gladness,
Grey  days  of  toil,  of  sober  thought,  of  woe.
These  are  the  ties  that  bind  us  to  each  other,
That  hold  the  present  handclasp  warm  and  true ;
Insures  the  valid  title,  sister  and  brother;
Growth  of  the  soul  insures,  by  balm  and  rue.
Our  hill  of  life  is  now  in  its  declining,
Care's  silver  frosts  our  hair:  we're  growing  old;
And  warp  and  woof  of  life,  of  God's  designing,
Shows  sorrow's  filling  midst  its  cloth  of  gold.
You  in  the  limelight — I  along  the  shadow-
Both  striving,  where  God  placed  us,  true  to  be.
I  know  thy  worth,  thy  friendship's  loving  service,
Thy  tenderness,  and  thine  integrity.
Long  may'st  thou  live,  to  gather  life's  best  blessings,
And  long  enjoy  the  vigor  of  thy  youth.
Long  may  thy  hand  dispense  thy  meed  of  plenty,
Thy  influence  be  cast  for  God  and  Truth.
Mellow  and  golden  be  thine  age,  surrounded
By  peace  and  kindred,^far  from  world's  alarms;
And,  like  a  sheaf  of  ripened  wheat,  be  garnered,
Celestial  fruitage  to  thy  Master's  arms.
OgdkN,  Utah.
